As many of you know this has been a tough year for me. Grief has been for most of my year. The loss of one of my best friends, my dad going into care the loss of that father...
As many of you know this has been a tough year for me. Grief has been for most of my year. The loss of one of my best friends, my dad going into care the loss of that father figure. The loss of financial support that has helped me live for the last 4 years. That came with the loss of relationship as well. So many losses. Throughout out all of it I felt the love and support from my friends and people I work with.
A couple of weeks ago one of my friends gave me money for Christmas. I had $1.96 left in my account. Wow what a blessing that was. At school we did a Secret Santa where we get to bless someone at our school. I got the gifts that were so thoughtful and beautiful. Yesterday in my box I picked up a gift that made me cry. Someone had made this beautiful angel. It’s all beaded and it’s another reminder that no matter what I’m going through in my life that God has His angels watching out over me.
This angel is made with love. Yesterday someone who I’ve gotten to know gave me a gift card for a local grocery store. Today I was blessed with another gift card for the same grocery store. Wow I was so blown away by both of the people. No matter what is happening in my life I’m blessed beyond belief. One of the people told me that she had been in the same situation that I find myself in and she wanted to give back to me.
I know one day that I will give back to someone else. I’m working on a solution that I find myself in one that will help me stay ahead. One where I don’t have to worry about money and one that works for me. I realized I can’t go into another year with how I’m feeling now. I’m looking forward to freedom from feeling like I can’t do this.
Today I saw a bald eagle driving home. Another reminder that God’s got all of this and it will be ok. 
Thank you so much to all my friends who have stood by me and blessed me so much. I love what my teacher has the children in our class repeat after her.
I am loved
I am special
Give yourself a hug.
I need to remember these things as an adult. I am loved. I am special and I am blessed. 